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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Struggles...

 

I struggle to keep my house clean.  Heck, sometimes it's not even sanitary.

I struggle to be a nice person and not yell at my kids in a really mean and even vicious way.

I struggle being a mother. I struggle to like my three older children sometimes.

I struggle being a wife.

I struggle being a worship leader and not feel like a fraud.

I struggle with rage and outbursts that freak me out.

I struggle to fight off a selfish depression that I could quite easily give into.

I struggle to have close friendships that require me to be truly honest.

I struggle to read my bible.

I struggle to really let Jesus close.

I struggle with the Fruits of the Spirit, and wonder often if I really am saved, or I'd display these much better.

I struggle with sin.

 

For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ~Romans 7:19

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Visit LifeIsAPolka's Xanga Site!
You're awesome!
Thank you for being real and transparent. It's through the cracks in our pots that the light and love of Jesus can shine. His power can rest upon us in our weakness - if we let it. I struggle, too. I think so many of us Christians work so hard at putting on a super spiritual show, and I think our fraudulence with ourselves and each other (meaning, pretending we have it together) is what freaks out unbelievers and other believers. Wasn't it Brennan Manning who wrote "The church is not a museum for saints, but rather, it is a hospital for sinners"? I love that quote.

Be of good cheer, Abba's Princess. You're in good company. Only God is perfect. Let's give ourselves permission to be what we are - beggars in need of divine welfare, children of the Most High Heavenly Daddy Who loves us and delights in us despite our poopy diapers.

Thank you again for being real and transparent. I appreciate that.

God bless you!

~Christine, a/k/a Life Is A Polka
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me too.
Posted 8/14/2009 6:12 AM by gwyneth - recommend - reply

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the light and warmth and love of Jesus radiates out through that heart of yours. thank you for the comment...for all your Christlike support. eternally grateful.
Posted 9/2/2009 8:56 PM by rachaelsdad - recommend - reply

Visit prayonthestars's Xanga Site!

I too have so many of those same struggles!


MOe C

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Visit Judio29's Xanga Site!
I love  ur honesty...me, too!
Posted 9/18/2009 11:19 PM by Judio29 - recommend - reply


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