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Wed, 04 Nov 2009 22:49:03 GMT

I got wordy over here.

Now more than ever...

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 05:11:41 GMT

Struggles...

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 06:42:28 GMT

I struggle to keep my house clean. Heck, sometimes it's not even sanitary.

I struggle to be a nice person and not yell at my kids in a really mean and even vicious way.

I struggle being a mother. I struggle to like my three older children sometimes.

I struggle being a wife.

I struggle being a worship leader and not feel like a fraud.

I struggle with rage and outbursts that freak me out.

I struggle to fight off a selfish depression that I could quite easily give into.

I struggle to have close friendships that require me to be truly honest.

I struggle to read my bible.

I struggle to really let Jesus close.

I struggle with the Fruits of the Spirit, and wonder often if I really am saved, or I'd display these much better.

I struggle with sin.

For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ~Romans 7:19

If I Were President

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 23:03:45 GMT

DISCLAIMER... THIS IS IN JEST!! There won't be an abundance of detail, nor can or will I cover every possible scenario, and I'm deliberately leaving the war alone *grin* so please don't write me saying I suck or anything like that... let's keep it lighthearted in the manner it was meant, mmkay?

It seems to me, that President Obama is making a right mess of things, that could, quite simply, be very, very easy.

And, just so you know, Obama in Xanga's spell check gave the option of Opium. I find that hilarious.

I digress.

I thought, just for fun, I'd take a couple of the most contentious issues at present, and give my ideas on how to, hopefully, keep everybody happy. Remember, I'm not a proficient on your laws nor your constitution, so if I step on anyones toes, I beg off through ignorance. I also realise I'm not a natural born citizen. But heck, the last I heard, they're trying to change that so Arnie can get in. That tickles me more than you will ever know.

One thing I am under the assumption of, and please forgive me if I am wrong, but there aren't a lot of NATIONAL laws, just mostly state by state ones. To me, having grown up where I have, this is strange, to say the least. You are the UNITED states of America, after all... it would make sense if you all agreed on a few things *grin*

ELECTIVE ABORTION
NATIONALLY illegal. It's murder, from a scientific standpoint, end of story. Roe v Wade overturned (not sure exactly how to do that, but it's my pretend presidency, so there *grin*) If discovered, both mother and father (and anyone else, if it is discovered they aided and abetted) will be held, and convicted on murder charges, along with the conductor of the abortion.

Circumstances where the mother will die if she doesn't receive immediate medical attention which will in all likelihood kill the child (non self inflicted injuries that require surgery, for example) is to be weighed heavily, but will be excused if found an imperative measure. Mental stability, or inconvenience to lifestyle is not a viable option to abort a child.

SUING BECAUSE MC DONALDS MADE YOU FAT ETC
I will implement a National Wall of Shame, broadcast on prime time tv every week for anyone who makes any stupid, nonsensical lawsuit. Any judge dumb enough to award in favour of these lawsuits will be removed from their stature and told to go back to law school. Coffee is supposed to be hot, dumbass.

DEATH PENALTY
I propose a NATIONAL law for murder and its counterparts (Manslaughter 1 to however many, and the 3 levels of murder). This will eliminate state-hopping, and have a known fair and final punishment for your crime.

As I am personally opposed to the Death Penalty on moral, ethical and religious grounds, I feel this would require a referendum to see what "we the people" feel about it. Personally, it might be nice to be on the same page with the rest of the free world about it. Just an observation. The referendum would include options such as (all depending on degree) "no to death penalty but yes to rest of life without parole", "yes for every instance", "yes, but only for multiple murders", "yes for obviously-flat-out-can't-get-out-of-it pre meditated". Obviously, it would be written much, much more intelligently.

BUILDING HOUSES OUT OF TIMBER IN TORNADO COUNTRY
Truly, this boggles my mind. I will never forget this one guy telling how he survived Katrina by hiding in the concrete room he built under his house, like it was some amazing thing. The rest of the house disintegrated but he lived. WHAT CAN WE LEARN FROM THIS, PEOPLE?

Building regulations will be toughened, and all houses in affected areas will be required to be built to code, ie concrete and steel. Caravans/trailers are not acceptable or safe dwellings in these areas. You can learn a lot from the people in Darwin, Australia. It will be the state government job to source/build safe welfare housing, of which people may apply for and obtain if they qualify.

HEALTH CARE
Whoo boy, this is an interesting one. The United States is the only wealthy country not to have a national healthcare system. I don't see why it can't be possible if every person earning a wage gave a few dollars every paycheck to a National Healthcare Levy. With the amount of people in the country, this should be sufficient, along with whatever is in the national budget every year towards health, to buoy a healthcare plan that works for everyone.

Stop being afraid of it being 'socialised". It's taking care of everyone, regardless of their lot in life. It's not a bad thing.

Of course, you may still have private health care if you wish. But you will also be able to go to the hospital without fear of your policy not covering, and not stress out if you lose your job. However, with a healthcare plan that works, it should keep the private companies honest, and more than willing to help, because they'll know that you don't need them. Should also bring the costs down. And that's always a good thing

The National Healthcare plan would cover certain things, like public hospital stays, all necessary procedures/treatments/operations/medication while in hospital, chemo, radiation and care, REGARDLESS of your "contribution to society" (which constitutional thingie was that again? "All men are created equal"?) Elective surgery and its requirements like hospital stays etc is not covered. You want bigger boobs or no facial expression? Cough it up.

Pride will be sucked up and talks will be had with Australia, France, Canada and Britain to see how they do it to a largely successful extent. The pros and cons will be discussed, and hopefully, the cons can be overcome, without a large tax/levy increase.

THE WORLD SERIES
Unless you actually invite, you know, other countries to join in, the name will be changed to something more appropriate like The American Baseball Series.

THE COLLEGE VOTE SYSTEM
Is dumb and will be abolished. It was, as far as I'm aware, put in place to keep the Rabble at bay, and make sure the Rich people got who they wanted in. Hardly seems fair. So, from now on, 1 vote= well... exactly that. Majority wins, people.

I also propose mandatory voting. It violates no rights as far as can tell. If anything, it assists your free speech. Seeing as though you are required to give it. I mean, really...for heaven's sake... for once someone actually cares about your opinion on a grand scale! I know people who'd give their right eye for that! How can you possibly have a fair ballot if not every one votes? Seriously. It could be your vote that wins it! If it means that much to you, don't show and cop the $25 dollar fine for not doing it. (Oh yeah... I'll implement that too. I'll stick it in the health budget.) Of course, if you are unable to vote, there is a way to go about getting let off. But you'd want to be in hospital, or prison. Or a coffin. Be UNITED, people. Everyone have their say. Then you actually have the right to complain if your candidate didn't get in.

And while we're on it, let's get rid of those stupid machines that either don't work, or stuff up the counting. All you need is a) a piece of paper with the candidates and a box next to their name b) a pencil and c) a box to put it in. Archaic, I know. But pretty much fool proof. Go to the voting place, get your name crossed off, and go stand in the ballot box and just scribble on the anonymous piece of paper. Drop it in the box. Done! You then have an army of people to count the ballots and put them in piles of say, 50. Then you add them up. May take a little longer, but it won't kill you. Patience is a virtue!

CLOTHING SIZES
These will be brought up to everyone elses standards. At present, a US 0 is an everywhere-else 4. People, you are fatter than you think. Get used to it.

Come to think of it, a size 0 is ridiculous. A size nothing? Even Lindsay Lohan at her lightest filled out a garden hose.

GUN CONTROL/REGULATION
Fan of it myself, but as a large proportion of the country is not, I propose the following NATIONAL laws. Again, this will eliminate state-hopping to obtain something you aren't allowed in your state.

I will not take away your right to own a weapon. Never the belief or intention.

HOWEVER.

1. You may not obtain a gun licence until you are 21 years of age. If you aren't deemed responsible or smart enough to drink alcohol until then, I'm certainly not going to give you a firearm.

2. You may not purchase a weapon of any sort unless you have a licence. Licenses will need to be renewed on a two yearly basis. The process to obtain a licence will be extensive. Gun licenses are to be obtained from the police, not the weapon shop, and they will also do a background history check as part of the procedure. You will be required to give your reasons for owning a weapon. Should anything untoward arise during the check, you will be asked to fill out vast amounts of paperwork explaining why you should be allowed to own a weapon. So, basically, you'd better really want one.

3. You must provide evidence of a secure gun safe within your home. Guns must be stored, unloaded, at all times within this safe.

4. You will need to have your licence before you can order or purchase a weapon or ammunition. You must produce it at the store, and it will be checked out before you make your purchase.

5. There will be a limit on a) how many weapons each individual may own and b) how many weapons each household may have on the premises at anyone time. This will be determined on your circumstances (ie: personal security firearms vs farm weapons etc.)

6. Every firearm must be registered under your name at your local police station.

7. I am not convinced that semi automatic weapons are necessary for hunting, farming or personal security. I firmly believe that fully automatic weapons are unsafe and unnecessary to any regular citizen, and belong only in the armed forces. As the argument has been used that the reason the Nazi's didn't invade Switzerland because every household had a rifle (not semi-automatic), one could also argue that that firearm alone would be sufficient to stop a home invasion in the US. As this is a personal opinion, I propose a referendum to ask the people whether semi automatic weapons (including concealable firearms) are VITAL to their security/hobby/professional needs. Should the answer be yes, then I believe the criteria for owning a semi automatic and/or concealable weapon should be much more rigorous.

8. Firearms and ammunition will no longer be readily available at Wal*Mart, KMART, or other "family" stores. Guns and the paraphenalia that goes along with them may only be sold at a fully licensed weaponry/gun/hunting shops

GIVING CELEBRITIES AIRTIME TO VOICE POLITICAL OPINIONS LIKE THEY MATTER
Seriously. These people play "let's pretend" for a living, most of the women haven't eaten for a decade, and they all have people who tell them what to wear. I saw a documentary once where Christina Aguilera has some one physically dressing her to go out on the town. And doing up her shoes. Hardly the people I'd ask for advice on anything, let alone who I should vote for. Giving them their own t.v show is especially stupid. *cough* theview *cough*

They have PR people to say everything else for them. Why can't they apply the same principal?

So, they aren't allowed to. So there.

Did I miss anything? *grin*

Anyway, I'm pretty sure people have objections to some, if not most of it :) And I don't mind a bit if you wouldn't vote for me :) But it was fun, being president for a day *grin*

Night Attire

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:18:09 GMT

I've found it increasingly difficult to find appropriate nightwear for my girls. As you're probably aware, our girls don't wear pants or shorts, so pyjamas weren't really an option either. That said, we did buy them some fleece ones for 'winter' a couple of years ago, because we simple couldn't find any long, warm nighties that were a)pretty, b)modest (even in winter) c)didn't have disgusting or demeaning or bad character traits blazooned across the front of them.

Bethany is an exceptionally long girl for 6, so we have been buying size 8 nighties to accomodate for all that leg. Unfortunately, most nighties look like big t-shirts, or have spaghetti straps, puckering at the 'breast' and so on and so on. And some of the things written on them! I'm glad my husband is very careful about what is spoken over our children, whether verbally or subconciously through their clothing. I'd hate for my sons to read that their sisters are, for example "going to bed.... want to join me?"

For a child.

We spoke often about me making the girls their night things. Adam agreed that it was probably the best way to go. So I went searching.

Look what I found!

I was so excited. Adam loved them, and so I purchased two, one in 2-5, and another in 6-8. SO we should be right for a number of years!

It's a discontinued pattern, that can be found here, for $11.95 And if you trace the smaller patterns onto baking or brown paper, you won't lose the larger sizes when cutting out.

Won't our daughters look sweet?

Hit me with your best... recipe

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 23:48:02 GMT

I am looking for vegetarian recipes, substantial enough for main meals, preferably without potato (or sweet potato/yams), dairy or pasta.

It's tough.

Any stashed away in your recipe books?

Just for you, Americans, in honour of Your Day

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 08:07:13 GMT

Death in the Family

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 14:20:22 GMT

I've held off for a couple of days writing this, hoping that my thoughts and emotions would sort themselves out into something coherent. They haven't as yet, but I shall write anyway.

It's not your usual death. However, it grieves me greatly. My life will forever be missing someone. Whenever I think of it, and the circumstances surrounding it, my chest constricts in a way I've never known, and I weep, not only for myself, but for Adam, for my children, for my parents.

But most of all, for my devastated dearest brother, who's first child was aborted by his ex-girlfriend at 11 weeks.

If I'm honest, and I'm so glad I can be here, I'm angry. Furious even. I loved that precious little life. I'd never met his girlfriend. But I adore my brother, and he was so overjoyed to become a father. It's all he's ever wanted. I'm angry because Rob didn't want her to. I'm angry because, as in his words, "But what could I do? She didn't want it."

And he's right. She left him, and decided she didn't want it after all. He's in the navy. He's at sea the larger chunk of the year. He couldn't have contested it. He wouldn't have stood a chance.

And you know what? I'm angry because we didn't get a say. The aunts and the uncles, who were so excited, for the grandparents who never got to see the first son of their first son. For the cousins, who, while they don't understand, I'm sure will feel the undercurrent for years.

I'm angry for the baby. I've never known my heart and arms could ache so much for a child not of my own womb. I'm angry that we couldn't save him. I'm angry that even if we'd offered to have the baby, which we would of, without a second thought, it wouldn't have changed the outcome.

I'm angry there's no grave. I'm angry he will never be spoken about. I'm angry he'll never be acknowledged. I'm angry. I'm ANGRY.

I never met him. I never held him. I never breathed him in. In fact, I don't even know if it was a boy. But it's what comes naturally, and I believe the Lord it impressing it upon me.

And yet, I feel the compulsion to reach out to find him. To cuddle him close, and tell him is loved, that he was wanted, and is the sweetest little smidgen to ever grace my life.

Babies were made to be cuddled... it is incomprehensible to me that he never was... by choice.

I can't write any more. I just want to thump the keyboard and swear. Loudly.

Rest safe in the arms of Jesus, precious, beloved, sweet baby.

Badoom Ching... if I do say so myself.

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 05:35:27 GMT

April 26... Drew busted his collar bone. He was bouncing on a beach ball at the ANZAC day picnic, came off it and busted it. Well, it was either then or when he tripped getting up and fell on it AGAIN.

So anyway, we were at his second fracture clinic check up to make sure it's healing all great. The doctor asked me "Does he play any contact sport?"

To which I answered "He is a contact sport!"

Will I be forgiven if I post pics of the kids?

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 23:02:39 GMT

Hi there

I have been around. Just not here, it seems. THough I do check, and comment here and there. I'm on Facebook a bit. Twitter too. Keeping things to 140 characters is fun. You can be vague, and add the snippets of your day which would be totally boring (or strange) or you otherwise wouldn't bother posting about, because they were too well... not postworthy enough to sit down and write a huge bunch of stuff around and make it funny. Or poignant. Whatever. Follow me on Twitter! It's fun!

I honestly can't think of anything remotely exciting to tell you all. Adam and I are dieting, again. Doing better this time around, though, of course, we got sick. Apparently. Yesterday, I felt so rotten sick, if I hadn't known without a doubt I wasn't pregnant, I would have been sure I had morning sickness... metallic taste in the mouth and everything. I did not move from my bed unless I absolutely had to. Adam was hilarious. Obviously, the diet wasn't working, and we needed to eat more stuff. Like meat. And dairy. Both of which we have dropped, and have felt better than we have in years.

Please ignore the fact that we ate salt and vinegar chips and drank coke the night before and got all of 4 hours sleep.

Which is what I put the blerkies down to.

I'm still struggling with keeping up with the vast amount of housework my family of 7 creates. This is not improved with the washing machine breaking on Thursday last week.

Yes. The Washing Machine. For a family of 5 very. grubby. kids. Who need uniforms. I borrowed a friends machine for three loads of essentials on Sunday after church. But sheets need doing, and

The oven also broke. So, I've been improvising most of the the things I cook to stovetop or grill (broiler, I think you in the USA call it.) Anyway, the dude is coming on Thursday to fix both.

Goodbye $300.

The things that we all need to go to the doctor for are slowly adding up. Remember when Beth broke her nose a few years ago? And the doctor said she was fine and they didn't need to do anything? Well, she hasn't breathed through her nose since. She can, she just chooses not to. I don't think she get;s enough oxygen that way, so she just uses her mouth. We've noticed it getting a little noisy too, as of late. And she snores pretty shocking.

I keep losing my voice for no reason at all. I'll just wake up and it's gone. It comes back in about 4 days. My throat doesn't hurt at all, I just can't speak. In the last 12 months, it's happened about 8 times. My research is leading me to lean pretty strongly to suspect vocal polyps. NOT GOOD.

My right ear hasn't really bothered me lately, (did I ever tell you it seems like it hasn't 'popped' sometimes? Usually if I've been singing or talking for an extended periods of time) though I am getting short bouts of ringing in it every now and then.

Both Adam and I have some moles that need serious attention, and there's one on Beth's face that I've been watching pretty closely.

My periods haven't been regular now since Eli was born. They fluctuate between 21 to 30-something days and are still pretty heavy.

The kids are still in A Season. Adam and I, more so I, are at a bit of a loss as to what do next. They will do as Adam tells them. No worries there. Me? You would even have known I had spoken most of the time. Seriously. They plain ignore me. They moan and groan if I ask them to do something, like pick up their own toys etc, and then don't. Or they'll pick up one, then go and play. I can't yell, because that seems to exacerbate my throat problems (further concreting the supposition of polyps) and spanking just doesn't seem to get through to them. Neither does Time Out, because that just gives them what they want... to not do anything. *sigh*

It just seems that there is a real spiritual battle going on in our house the last six months, what with things breaking and costing a fortune to fix (there have been other things), all the sickness... we are NEVER sick... and now the children's behaviour. We are seriously considering having the pastors and intercessors come through our house and pray. We aren't feeling up the the task ourselves. We have had certain curses broken off, which was wonderful. We do need to be more vigilant in our prayer life together as parents though. We find that that is the part we suck at most. I also miss how we used to sing together all the time. Looking back, it was because it was the only way we could really worship God in music. The previous establishment (as I call it) frowned upon striving for musical excellence as "showing off" and so we would just do it at home. Now, with the new leadership, we have the permission to have great music during worship, and we have a great team building around us and we no longer do it at home together. We should fix that.

Adam and I have started walking in the evening with the kids, and it has been a fantastic time together as a family. (Drew struggles a little with whining, but we'll skip over that for now). Bethany has been relishing in it. She loves to do stuff together. If there was one child who thrives on one-on-one time, it's her. We need to work more on that. Troy is growing up so fast. He turns 9 in a two months, and we've been giving him a little more responsibility. While he is struggling with it, he also shines in some areas. He pushes a stroller when we walk, and we only have to tell him 50 times not to run with it *grin* His reading is going so well! He reads books to himself now. It almost happened overnight. Drew has had a good couple of weeks at school, after a few where the teacher was like "what on earth?!" We were like that at home. Drew responds well to praise. Amy remains her delightful self, though she has been SCREAMING lately. But this shall pass. They all went through it. Amy still loves to worship. You can't tell me it's anything else. She only dances to christian music, and the arms are up, and she sings. She turns three soon, and her vocabulary has exploded. Eli is gorgeous. He's going through the hitting stage that comes with 18 months of age, but other than that, he;s a wonderful, snuggly, kissy cherub.

Adam has grown a beard. Sort of. It's a moustache with a goatee, with a thin line around his jaw. I've gotten used to it. It's not completely horrendous, as he agreed to keep it short and tidy. It was my one stipulation once I conceded. He shaved it all off once. He kept looking at me strangely I thought. I didn't notice! He had to point it out to me. I nearly died. He hated it. So he grew it back.

I think that's about all I cut my hair really short, and I'm loving it. Struggling with shifting baby weight, but it'll happen. Slowly purging our house of all accumulated crap. It's never ending. I'm sticking to the mantra of "keep nothing but that which you know to be useful, or believe to be beautiful." It's incredibly freeing. Though I still struggle with the kids toys, because, you know, I paid for that.

So there you have it peeps. Everything I can think of that you might be remotely interested in. And if you weren't, well, at least you had the pictures to look at